Kiola's Recovery Story
"I'm not telling you it is going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."
Listen Up... just because I was smiling, doesn’t mean I was truly enjoying my life.
So my bottom may have looked like a normal life on the outside, I earned degrees, had multiple jobs at a time, had a car, a place to live and was accomplishing my life’s goals.
But I knew I had a greater purpose in my life. I knew that arguing all the time, being anxious and over thinking everything, and taking everything personally was not how I wanted to live forever.
I put myself in danger on a regular basis!
When I finally did get what I deserved, and was arrested for DUI, I wasn’t ready to actually get help. I went to 1 meeting & then decided I could handle it on my own.
I lasted 8 months.
A dry drunk they call it in the rooms.
Without any real tools or knowledge of why my relationship with alcohol was toxic, I convinced myself I could be a ‘Normal Drinker’😆Nahhh man.
I’m not even a ‘normal’ person😜how could I possibly be a normal drinker? I grew up as a child of a recovering addict, in a neighborhood where I was one of few Black people, in a home struggling with poverty.
Once I learned how much those factors affected me as a person & I made the connection to why alcohol was seemingly soothing to me, then I was finally able to actually heal.
When I finally walked into the room & heard the 1st person share, I knew immediately that I needed to be there. After a year living substance free, I have healthy relationships and I know how to apologize for my mistakes rather than blaming others. I seek resolutions rather than picking fights. I truly understand serenity and a aim for peace.
Everyday isn’t perfect, but it’s a hell of a lot better than drowning myself in margaritas and still having a bunch of problems to face! Now I face life head on!
I share cuz I’m not ashamed.
I share cuz I’m proud of who I’m becoming.
I share so people will know they’re not alone.