Hayley's Recovery Story
For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Hi! Here’s my recovery story segment. Thanks for your patience! 🤍
My name is Hayley. I’m a 34 woman in recovery and from Washington, D.C. I grew up in an American military family. Looking back, I started displaying signs of addiction at a very early age. Early in childhood, my parents divorced; I grew up fast, experimented young, and struggled to find my identity and purpose in life.
By 16, I began partying often. When my peers stopped or moved on, I was looking for the next “scene” and the next group of friends that accepted my lifestyle without judgment or questions. By nothing short of a miracle, I made it to adulthood. I fell in love, had a beautiful child, and shortly after his birth, I was diagnosed with Stage II Lymphoma. After 6 months of chemotherapy, I came out on the other side. Nevertheless, I struggled with an endless search to reveal why I survived, what incredible thing was I destined to do that granted this second chance? Shame for disappointing the universe and my perception of higher purpose reverted me to the only thing I knew to cope with- substance abuse.
I retreated into my disease quickly. I lost relationships, engaged in risky behavior over and over, and continued to down a shame spiral perpetuated by my addiction. At the height of it, I was drinking from the moment I woke up; to the moment I went to bed and stopped loving myself. In August 2020, I checked myself into detox and I’ve been in recovery ever since. Through meetings, my program, and my sober support network, I have a life I never thought possible, and that I finally believe I deserve. I love myself more than I ever thought possible. If you’re struggling to understand your relationship with addiction, stay because you’re finally home.